marvain

This week has been the most boring week of my summer so far. I’m mostly stuck inside the house because I’m too LAZY to go out. I’ve turned down party invitations even though the other one meant that I’m in the guestlist and will be with friends whom I haven’t seen for quite a lengthy time. I don’t know why I act like this. A reason is maybe because I’m taking advantage of the time where I can sleep for a minimum of 10 hours a day and do whatever I want here at home because I believe that when I start working, I won’t be able to do these things anymore. I just want to get the most out of what this house could offer me because I know time will come that I will surely miss it.

Anyway, did I tell you that I feel worthless during the past weeks? I guess most of the students who marched almost 2 months ago and haven’t gotten a decent job yet also feel the same way. I feel like I’m of no value, really. When I go out, it’s slowly becoming hard for me to ask for money from my Mom since I feel like it’s already my responsibility to provide for myself. She doesn’t complain and turn sour when she gives me though, but I don’t know. I just feel like I’m wasting all her money since I generally use them to support my vices. Haha I know right?

What else? Hmm surprisingly, I think I’m missing school already. Actually I miss being busy. It just proves that being a bum also has a disadvantage. Now, I always think of what I should do the next day which is entirely a pain in the ass because every single day is becoming a routine. Not like when I was in school, it’s already scheduled that I have to submit a report on a certain day or take a quiz the day after that. There’s always something to look forward to when you’re in school which makes me miss it even more.

Okay, I know I will scratch everything I said when I finally land a job and become hectic again. Haha I just know.

I can't blame you if you always disappoint me. It's me who made you that way.

Honestly, I don't know how and where to start this entry. I just feel that I really need to write here, AGAIN. It has been about what? 58 weeks since I last posted here? That's more than a year. I must say I missed placing my thoughts in my blog. I guess this has been one of my good options in taking out my emotions. And it just really feels great to carve my sentiments here after a long long time.

So what's up with me? In a few months I'll be graduating and I'm piled up with mixed emotions. I suppose every graduating student in college feels the same way as I do. It's like I want to hold back but I can't since my family has plans in migrating in the US. At the same time, I'm craving for the feeling of earning my own money and paying my own tax. Weird I know, but I find it exhilarating. I presume everything will be new for me after I finally leave the portals of my university. I'm excited and sad as well. This is life and all I have to do is move on and take bigger responsibilities. I can't stay in this spot where I am now. I have to make a name and do this for myself and my family.

I just hope my plans will prosper soon. I know it will be hard but that's the way it is. I'm willing to take my chances.

[+] Someone was really beautiful kanina. :)

How is everybody? Wala lang. Just trying this thing out and see if it's still working. Gawd, I miss being an ljwhore. Will continue writing as soon as something worth blogging takes place. Same things happen over and over again. Party, tambay, stoogs, cards, dance, school.. My life is going nowhere.

It’s just so weird how people can’t seem to move on after a grueling, ass-kicking pain. How they still savor the feeling of loneliness and the moments of crying. How they still get excited when the person they love texts or calls them. How they accept self-insecurities. How they try to change themselves in order to be liked and loved. It’s just plain weird. Love is really very exhaustive.

I just wish you didn’t come back. Because even though I found your door, I never had your keys. :(

OMG, someone lusts over me?

Ok, I think I did the Rebel high.

I went to class just in time and I was so giddy to see my blockmates again. I've observed that nothing actually changed except for alicia and erika's haircut. Haha! So I had 2 hours of spanish (supposedly 3 hours) for my first subject. The professor bores me, really. He's old and I think I forgot his name. Haha! See? I'm not even interested to know his name. Phoebe and I were just iPod-ing and texting some people. After the 2 hour suckiness, I went to Lovelite together with the fLp to eat. Then Paolo, Rafael, and Lech came. Talk, talk, talk then its time for our Fil2 class. Sir Ampil! He's gay. He even told us that the word JOLOGS came from two words. JOLLIBEE for JOL and BUSOG for OG. So JOLOGS means JOLLIBEE BUSOG. Why so? Because as we all know, most people that eats in Jollibee are the masses therefore making them Jologs. Okay, I have no idea if I'll believe him or not. Anyway, after class, Rafael, Paolo and I went to 1611 and did what we do best. DRINK. Oh yeah, we started the academic year drinking so I guess we'll spend the whole year drinking, AGAIN. So there. That's why I think I did the rebel high during my first day in class. :)

OO NA, GAYA-GAYA NA DIN AKO

Ako ay si : Marvin

Sabi nila : masarap daw ako kasama

Sabi ko naman : talaga!

Ang huli kong binili: 2 packs ng Marlboro Lights

Ang huli kong kinain ay : liempo at tuna

Ang cellphone ko ay : masarap ibato

Ang huling nag miscol sa fone ko ay: si EJ

Ang huling nag text sakin ay si : Rafael

Nagising ako kaninang : 1:30pm

Pagkagising ko : tinignan ko phone ko at natulog ulit

Ako ay nasa : loob ng kwarto

Ang kulay ng suot ko ngaun ay : orange and gray

Ang kulay ng bed sheet ko ngayon ay: berde

Naiinis ako sa : feeling cool at mainit na panahon

Natutuwa nmn ako dahil/kasi : papasok na ako bukas

Namimiss ko na : blockmates ko, si pie, at si tale

Hindi ko naman namimiss : ikaw

Huli akong uminom ng beer : last saturday

Ang ininom namin nun ay: beer malamang. ano baaa

Kasama ko nun cna: rafael, paolo, jaymee, and jane

Ang oras ngayon ay: 10:24pm

Ang nagpost ng survey na2 ay si: si Nikki ang nanguna

Huli akong umiyak nung : last, last sunday

Umiyak ako dahil : hehe nakakahiya ang jolog e

Huli naman akong tumawa nung : kahapon?

Huli akong pinatawa ni/ng : Rufa Mae Quinto. Sabi kasi niya "I feel so honored, like an honor student...". Mababaw I know pero natawa ako. Hahaha!

Crush ko si : madami. malandi ako e

Crush naman ako ni : wag ko daw pagkalat e

Pero mahal ako nila: pamilya, kaibigan, at si tooot.

Ang kantang pinakikinggan ko ngayon: why you wanna - t.i.

Gusto kong : kumain ng matamis

Hindi ko alam gagawin ko kng la akong: bibig

nagagandahan ako kay : nichole ng PCD

Nagagwapuhan ako kay : sa tatay ko

feeling ko: mainit bukas

Excited ako: pumasok

ilang ako kay: wala

dedma kay : sa dumededma sa akin

Highschool friends, do you still remember our batchmate Candy Paredes? I think she's one of the briefcase holders in the newest game show KAPAMILYA DEAL OR NO DEAL. Am I right? Uhh, just curious. Go figure. :D

1. Summer is stressful.

2. I need someone right now, someone I could hug all night. :)

... Wala lang. Sorry for not making sense. :D